Like you never have before.
You bared your body, your heart, your spirit and soul.
Last night, You got vulnerable.
You went to places way beyond who you thought you were.
Unleashed this new possibility of yourself out into the world.
You expressed your full power,
Lit up by your own expansion,
Amazing, exhilarating, ecstasy.
That left you,
And this morning.
You wake, with a sinking feeling in your stomach.
Flashbacks coming in. remembering it all.
'What the hell was THAT?'
Well my friend;
Your fixed self concept got absolutely fucking smashed last night.
Downing shots of love,
Taking swigs of pleasure,
Skulling bottles of bliss,
Until it was passed out unconscious on the floor somewhere...
Last night your true essence was given full permission to play.
And oh did she play.
She danced all night.
In reckless, wild, abandon.
Made love with the universe, with everyone and everything.
You're not so sure...
Something that seemed so breathtakingly freeing
Now feels a bit seedy,
A bit cringey and freaky.
DESIRE - that pull or charge we feel in our body towards something or someone are signposts to transformation, growth, connection, love and our gateway to divinity.
Our desires are the divine pull that can guide our entire life.
But still, this idea can be a challenge to embody when all around us this energy is being shut down, repressed and blocked- we have so much mind shit going on that the initial impetus of our desire gets stopped fast in it's tracks before we even get the chance to say 'I like you'- This starts to happen from a very young age and because it's such an ingrained pattern, so many of us have no idea what we actually do want because we have spent so many years having to keep it in.
The channel between feeling the desire and expressing it is clogged up and this energy gets all confused and warped in it's attempt at expression - desires and wants manifest in weird, unclear ways that leave us unfulfilled, unsatisfied and unmet.We withhold our expression of our desire all the time because we are scared of what that means - maybe we will look like a slut, desperate, needy, sleazy. Or we turn the initial activated pull of desire into fantasy ideas about that person being the 'one' our soul mate or the person we are meant to have our babies with. All these mind concepts are the very things that block the free flow of the expression of it. Rather than simply trusting the energy is guiding you and be curious about what that is.
If we move in the spiritual, Buddhist, ascetic worlds for long enough we can be told that our desires are not spiritual - or maybe as a young child we were told we were 'selfish'
There are plenty of teachings out there which can support the idea that our desires are something we need to ascend, detach from, get rid of or feel bad about.
We are living in an epidemic of desire suppression and it's fucking shit up.