 He’s not your knight in shining armour
He’s not your future prince He’s not your happily ever after fairytale Here to save you with a kiss. He’s not the Shiva to your Shakti. He’s not your twin flame You’re running your daddy issues with this dude I’m sorry, but it’s gotta be named.  A free man is one of the most terrifying things for a woman.
Because once a man becomes free, He cannot be trained, He cannot be moulded, He cannot be controlled. He cannot manipulated into who we want him to be. You complain that your man isn’t strong enough, Doesn’t fuck you hard enough, well enough, or frequently enough, Isn’t strong or passionate or exciting or masculine enough. You say you want a King who's established and mature. But what you aren’t getting is the very thing that would make this man all of that and more… Is also the very thing that when it truly shows up, will threaten to completely destroy your Disney princess fantasy and christian conditioned matrimonies that are keeping it alive. And that shit is terrifying. A man who isn’t dependent on mummy's love, So starving for her nourishment and so scared of its withdrawal that he will do anything to keep it on tap. A man who tentatively puts all his desires and needs aside for yours, the strings of your purse tightening around his balls with every ‘yes dear.’ A free man's integrity is more important to him than his need for your approval. He loves you, but loves himself more.  I am a very sensitive person which comes with both its gifts and its challenges.
Gift wise - I am tuned in as fuck and extremely sensitive to what is going on for people. I can literally feel and identify often very accurately a persons patterns within a few minutes of talking with them and it makes me a kick ass facilitator and coach because I can really get real with people. The challenge is, I've really had to learn how to live gracefully in a world that often feels really harsh. This harshness I experience is because so many of us are so disconnected from what we are feeling and so we walk around emotionally and energetically stabbing each others soft underbellies without even knowing it. Yes at a core level we are all actually deeply tuned in, sensitive and psychically aware of each other, but because many of us at some point chose to disassociate from ourselves because someone else stabbed our underbelly with their own disconnection because someone stabbed them...the cycle of harsh shutdown relating continues. Often as we open up and more and more, we can find ways of connecting and relating that were perfectly acceptable before suddenly become really painful - that sarcastic comment or jab cant be laughed off or brushed away like it used to because now you can really FEEL it and it hurts. There are two things you can do in this moment when you can feel someone acting in a way that is stabbing to the heart.  Have you ever had a woman dance for you?
Dance and grind down the divine for you? Gifting you with her opening, Blessing you with her pleasure. Have you ever? Have you ever had a woman dance for you? Setting you free from your mind with the softness of her thighs, Cumming in service to your consciousness. In sensual devotion to your depth. Have you ever? Have you ever had a woman reveal who you are with her ripple of her flesh? Every flick of her hair and curve of her hip. Every inch of her, in service to you. Have you ever had a woman dance you back home into yourself with her sex? |
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