If I had to transmit only one piece of wisdom on the world before I died it would be this.
That no matter what is happening to you right now or has happened to you in the past.
I can absolutely 100 percent guarantee you that your life is absolute fucking magic and poetry.
That in every moment that has and will happen you are constantly being deeply served and loved.
When I had my psychosis 6 years ago I was initiated into this big time.
I was totally cracked open after doing a lot of spiritual work way too fast, went down the altered state rabbit hole and amongst a whole bunch of weird and dark shit that was my psyche trying to process and integrate a lot of undealt with stuff,
I also experienced the full on interconnectedness of all things that has stayed with me since.
I experienced a level of crystal clear awareness of the magic of reality - that every relationship, every word spoken, every physical occurrence that manifested in front of my eyes was intrinsically linked.
Literally NOTHING was seperate, nothing was a coincidence, nothing just 'happened' to us. I was able to clearly see ALL THE PATTERNS within the seeming chaos of every moment, this ridiculously meaningful and so fucking symbolic "couldn't have made this shit up if I tried" co-creation we were all doing was fully exposed to me. I could see how we were all playing these weird intimately linked games with each others patterns, compatible and incompatible frequencies playing out their karmic journey with each other in sometimes extremely subtle and also not so subtle ways.
From that experience I was 100 percent convinced that there is a web that connects all of us that cannot be segmented into good and bad, us and them, you and me or even this and that - I experienced that every single fucking moment and object in time that that has ever and will ever be is connected and inseparable to everything else.I think part of me had known this all along. I remember when I was a little girl and something had gone 'wrong' in my day. I would lay in bed that night and ask myself
"Whose fault was this?"
And then I would trace the turn of events back through the day then back through history, all the way back through all the births of every person and ancestor who was part of that occurrence, and then right back to the beginning of time and space itself until there was no one to blame but the universe.. and then I'd fall asleep!
I think it was my little souls version of counting sheep and purifying the ego at the same time.
"Instead of judging what is, he accepts it and then comes into conscious alignment with highest order. there are no random events, nor are there events or things that exist by and for themselves in isolation. If you wanted to trace back the cause of my event you would have to go back all the way to the beginning of creation. " - Eckart Tolle
I've known people who believe this is no meaning to life - that we are all just here and then we die and that's that. That there is no higher force or connective consciousness power going on that we are basically just sacks or meat, blood, bone and brain chemicals walking around bumping into each other - and I just don't buy it. My spiritual connection to life is not from a book, is not because a guru told me that 'everything is connected' and 'we are all one' it's because I have lived that and felt that and I ABSOLUTELY KNOW it to be true and I want you to know this too.
And the thing is, even if you have not yet had a visceral experience of the spiritual connectedness of all this, this way of seeing the world is essentially also just a belief system that we can install and cultivate within ourselves that brings a level of surrender and empowerment that I don't believe anything else can.
Committing to the belief system, that nothing is a coincidence, that nothing ever just happens to you, that nothing is seperate from anything else - that how we do one thing is how we do everything, how all of it is connected - is I believe the most empowering way to be in the world. It makes us wake up to the richness of our experience, to own about our part to play in every interaction and situation, it calls us to surrender to life, to see the magic manifesting in every moment. To know that even when shit fucking hits the fan and hurts like hell that life has SO MUCH LOVE FOR YOU and that love is sometimes a deep long kiss and sometimes a hard slap in the face.
This belief system and way of seeing the world essentially wipes out our ability to be a victim and puts us very quickly into a state of grace.
I am still a human and no way mastering this state constantly. I still have moments when I lose my shit when I blame or project or resist what is happening - however because of this belief that is essentially my religion that anchors me and the frame I view the world through - that space of resistance and blame or separation - It rarely lasts long, because there is a part of me that is far stronger, a part of me that knows that everything is happening for a reason - some of those reasons I can see right now, some will reveal themselves many years later - some maybe never. But no matter what, what I can rely on is that nothing is just some random shitty coincidence but ALWAYS a magical as fuck manifestation of divine consciousness moving through the physical form bringing me and everyone on this planet into deeper alignment and vibration for the highest good.
I want you to know that EVERY MOMENT no matter how horrific or painful is weaving this crazy magical tapestry of life that you cannot control or even sometimes fully understand your place within it - that 80 percent of the iceberg is under the fucking water and that shit goes deep.
But no matter how bad things have been or are, no matter how intense or challenging that the ability to be open to what life is so poetically presenting and reflecting back to you is all you really need. Stop fighting life and let it humble you. Let it delight you and move you, make you laugh and cry at the same time at the irony of it all. Or at the very least, hold onto a deep trust of the process and surrender into the knowing that more will always be revealed and you can be guaranteed that this too is love.
Life is not all rainbows, it never will be - but when you take another look and be open to the fact that life is not happening TO you, but FOR you.
You may begin to see, that life is really fucking magical.